Turn Point

As the snow fall on the earth...

So does hope fall on every human hearts that believe...

What is self acceptance according to u?

This question came unto my mind these days.

Is it just accepting who and what u are without questioning whether u can change ur future or just follow where life will take u?

Can u accept urself if u can just live an ordinary life without significance and things that make u superior?

How is it like to wake up every morning and realize that u can do nothing to change ur life?

Well, I'm still looking for the answers for those questions that I asked myself. But maybe I can just give opinion that I believe true about this matter, and how is my point of view related to this.

Recently a sight of a street vendor that already running his own food business around my neighboirhood caught my attention. Lets just call him Wawan.

Wawan has been selling siomay (a kind of delicious food) for about 18 years in my neighborhood, and well, maybe people don't care how long he have been doing this business. But how if u replace his position? How if u wake up one day and realize that u can do nothing beside selling siomay to get some money for ur living? What are u going to do with the rest of ur life?

This fact made me realized that there is something in everyone's life that can change his/her future. Probably that's a decision that change his/her life forever, probably it is something that happen and he/she doesn't have any choice and have to take that.

But can I say it is a turn point?

A turn point is something that can make u choose an option that will change ur life forever.

Some people realized their own turn point because it was clearly shown, but some people missed their turn point just because they can't see it. But surely as snow fallen on earth or as sure as the sun sink in the west, someone had his/her own turn point.

Some may realized their own turn point since early childhood like, "I have to study hard so that my life will change."

Or some that think, "Ah, slow down, there so plenty of times to study, don't be too eager."

Well, not all people that acted like the first category get success, and not all the secondary category end up with a mess in their life. But again, what make it just a matter of turn point.

The question is : Will u recognize ur turn point and react correctly to it by making good choice?

Again I continue the previous quote that I made myself:

As long as u believe, there is enough hope to guide ur way

and know ur turning point

Executive Member of The Kingdom

Today a preacher from US came to my church and preached there. Some of you might knew about him, his name is John C. Maxwell. He preached a good sermon, about how to get miracles in Biblical ways. But what I wanna say now isn't the sermon that he preached. No, this is quite different.

What I wanna to say hit me when I passed the lounge where he rested for the next service after preaching. As I walk down the aisle, I noticed many of church ministers were gathered in front of thje lounge, some even managed to got into the lounge and talked to him.
Well, as a matter of fact, I kinda jealous about their privilege to joined John C. Maxwell and can talked to him directly (since he's one of my fave author and I had collected and read almost all of his books). And I begin speak in my heart, "GOD, I wish I can be one of those 'executive' church members that can interact with the preacher closely."

But the truth of GOD came into my mind and HE said, "My girl, there is no executive member in My kingdom, because everyone is special and I treat them the same. Only humans that make those differences. Don't look at human's social differences, because it will make you lose heart."

ZAP! That truth hit me like a sudden blow. I used to wish that I can get his (John C. Maxwell) signature on my Bible or a miracle happen then he gives me a ticket to his free seminar at Mulia Hotel that worth IDR 1.000.000,-
BUT that truth make me realize that it doesn't matter if I can't have his signature or attend the 1 million rupiahs-seminar. What really matter is that whether I have GOD signature on my heart, that's it. That's the truth I got today.

Well, if GOD signature can be read by everyone, probably it will say like this :

MELISSA
CEO KINGDOM OF GOD

coz I am special, just like every believers in the world!! YEAH!!

I keep praising YOU

"O God, You are my God;
Early will I seek You;
My soul thirsts for You;
My flesh longs for You
In a dry and thirsty land
Where there is no water.
So I have looked for You in the sanctuary,
To see Your power and Your glory.


Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,
My lips shall praise You.
Thus I will bless You while I live;
I will lift up my hands in Your name.
My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness,
And my mouth shall praise You with joyful lips."
(Psalm 63:1-5)

Though I can see no progress now, I won't be dissapointed.
And my mouth shall praise YOU, GOD.
Though I'm not chosen, I will keep on going to cherished my life...

F. R. U. S. T. A. T. E. D

Cramped and surrounded by grumpy people all around, after a lifting day before seems unberable to me...
All the sorrow and hectic conditions make me sick and tired. I'm not dissapointed, I choose not to be dissapointed while others flying high and I stuck in the mud of frustation and unchanging conditions.
I choose not to feed my ego and put myself on the lowest level of acceptance.
The road seems crampy and sturdy, but I know that there must be the end of all of these. Coz u can't hide a diamond in the mud without see the thing glowing perfectly...

Safe in Your Hands

I had fly thousands miles away,

My wings had been torn by the wind and storms,

I had so many dissapointments and I'm weary

I can't continue this journey no more...

Suddenly a hand stretched out to me,

Provide me a place to stay and rest

Now it's my choice to take that arm or abandon it forever

My mind confused, I don't want to be hurted again.

And there I fly, in the midst of confusion and fear

I wait the hand that I think will dissapear slowly

But I'm wrong, the hand is still there

Waiting for me

Tears are running on my face

For the first time in my life,

There is Someone that cares for me

There's a hand that shield me

I fly and safely land on that hand

And rest there till the storms are gone